Who am I?

I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am a woman. I am a friend. I am a girlfriend. And most importantly, I am a mother. I am Kaiytee.

I was born in a 10,000 population town in Alberta. It’s a lovely little town in a beautiful location where the mountains are close on one side and the hills roll on the other. I grew up in this town and the result is that I would prefer any other town. Despite the beauty; I want nothing more to leave. But through the series of events in my life, I am still here.

I grew up in a mill home with 4 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. A large yard with a trampoline which I loved with my whole existence. I climbed trees. I never wore shoes and wore holes in my jeans instead. The soles of my feet were hard as nails and I’m sure I could walk on shattered glass without flinching. I had a happy, full childhood.

I never had friends in school. Especially when I hit fourth grade. Cruel children taunted me throughout elementary school and I hated every second of it. Mind you, it has since taught me more than I had ever thought. I woke up everyday, miserable and angry that my mom was making me get ready and go to that terrible place. I would get dropped off in the morning and take the bus home after. I soon realized that I also hated the bus ride home. Much more than school itself. At least at school the teachers were there to referee; the bus driver was blind. I can vouch that rotten apples in the back of the head is nothing short of terrible.

I went into high school at the beginning of eighth grade scared and friendless. I was an outcast. I had a lip and belly button piercing and that’s what scored me my very first (and still) best friend, Kara.

Although I didn’t strive to achieve high marks in my school work, I hardly cared. I had the other half of my soul and we skipped to smoke and drink. I left high school at the end of grade nine to go to what I thought would be a better option for me; correspondence schooling. I was a badass or so I thought. I didn’t keep up with my work and my priorities were lacking something fierce. I still to this day have no graduated.

Kara ended up moving away to a different town. From that point forward most of my memories aren’t very clear. I spent a lot of time shuffling through guys, drinking and experimenting with different drugs. My attitude was sky high and I had a don’t-give-a-shit-about-anyone-but-myself frame of mind. Somewhere in my journeys, I met Jade. We are also still friends and have an interesting story that will be blogged at a later date.

Around 16-17 I started to come to a better understanding that my life was going nowhere fast. My boyfriend at the time, though he was good to me, was toxic. Our relationship was unfair and from and emotional standpoint, we were both suffering. I then had a sparked interest in Jade’s older brother. It was actually her idea that we start talking and I quickly decided that I wanted to peruse him so I ended things with my boyfriend. And now we have officially been together since May 25th, 2011.

Ira. He is the love of my life. My soulmate if you will. It has been a bit over 3 years together and let me tell you, we have had our ups and downs. Through a rough year in 2012, we ended up splitting. The first time for a week. We tried to fix things but it wasn’t happening and then a month later we split again. It was a terrible time in my life and I did some shameful things. We still seen each other and decided to work on things without putting a label back on it. And without living together again. That’s when life as we knew it changed..

December 4th, 2012. I knew something was different about myself. My period was two days late and I had a very strong intuition that when I peed on that absorbent tip, my result would be a little pink plus sign. I had stayed the night at Ira’s place the night before I took my test. In the morning I got a ride to my moms where I had been staying to watch my step brother. I waited until my mom left for work and peed. And the results was exactly as I expected.
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Here I am now. Our son, Raddek Zane is now 1 year old and our relationship is the best it’s ever been and only getting better. I have a completely new outlook of my life and I’ve come a very long way since that little plus sign appeared.

So that’s me. In a kinda small nutshell. I’m new to this blogging business so bear with me. This is the beginning of my life, opened up and exposed